Today is a hard day for my family. As many of you know, my father committed suicide just over two years ago, and our family has been slowly working through the repercussions of his loss since then. Shortly after he died, my mom sold the house she and my father bought together in the Sandia Mountains just east of Albuquerque, and moved to Santa Barbara, California, along with my sister.
The Lord has been very faithful to provide for the two Macallister girls in this painful season. Miraculously, my parent's house sold before my mom even put it on the market, and after some seemingly unfruitful house-searching in southern California, God literally provided an apartment for her and Bree to move into while they were driving toward the coast, the day before they arrived. My mom got a job offer that gave her enough time to get settled before she had to start, and my sister was accepted into a Paul Mitchell Hair & Cosmetology School, which she has now completed at the top of her class. She graduated as a phase two manager with perfect attendance and finished her core grad test in two hours with a perfect score, which has never been done before. I am so proud of her…
And now that she has completed it, it is time to move on. Seasons. Today begins a new season.
My sister loves Albuquerque. She loves her friends in Albuquerque. She loves Mars Hill Church Albuquerque and the community that we have with the people of God who attend it. And she has decided to move back.
Will you pray for us today? Will you especially pray for my mom, Jody Macallister, as today will be the first day in my life that she comes home from work without a husband, son or daughter to greet her? And will you pray for my sister, Bree Macallister, as today will be the first day that she steps out on her own and trusts Jesus to comfort our mom in her absence? And will you pray for me? Pray that I will be able to comfort and be comforted.
"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father." - Matthew 10:29
It occurred to me a few days ago, with overwhelming clarity and overwhelming sorrow, that we will never stop experiencing the pain of my dad's choices. Even still, in light of his pain, I feel like I understand his choices more than the pain that led to them. And yet here I return, asking why? when I should be asking Who? Who knows when sparrows fall? Who has carried my mom, sister, me and everyone else who has suffered the same loss through the last two years? Who met the man with open arms on the other side of death?
And so, it will be continue to be Jesus who carries us through this day, and the days to follow, as the pangs of death weigh a little heavier in this transition. It will continue to be Jesus' promise of abundant life that we cling to. It will continue to be Jesus' promise of eternal life that we endure for.
This winter. This winter has been painful. Paul prayed for the spiritual strength of the Ephesian church, and I am asking for your prayers for the spiritual strength of our family:
For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
- Ephesians 3:14-21
For the honor and the glory of the one by whom, for whom, through whom and to whom all things exist, thank you,