Awkward Blues Tour: Day #5

Tour [verb]: to completely negate a month's worth of hard work in the gym in a matter of four days. 

Actually I've been running (by "been" I mean, I ran twice). But I ran for five miles each time. It's actually not true that I've been working hard in the gym this last month. I didn't go once in October. Brandi bought me a CrossFit membership for a month in September, and I loved it, but last month was crazy with all this back and forth flying, and except for an awesome mountain trail run in Oneonta, New York halfway through October with one of the promoters, I didn't do much as far as exercise goes. 

All that to say, I feel miserable because of it now, so I'm getting back at it, at the worst possible time to do so: tour.

Last night we played at The Yucca Tap Room. At least ten people showed up throughout the night that ended up being turned away because it was a 21+ show. Felt even worse because a couple of them missed The Chariot's farewell tour down the street for it. I did my best to hang in the parking lot with most of them for a little bit. Got done with my set and walked outside to find three girls that the bouncer allowed to sit in front of the entrance and listen. That's dedication, man. 

Tour is nocturnal. Crashed at four, just woke up. Nearly fell asleep sitting up in a greasy mexican joint called Filberto's while everyone ate post-show. 

Just got asked who my favorite 90s rapper was. Probably Dre. I mean, didn't Eminem come out late 90s? I'm the epitome of his White America's "suburban kids who otherwise would've never known these words exists…" - oh well. Finally got a chance to listen through more of his Marshall Mathers LP II that just came out, though. I've got to say, I like it, overall. I was scared of the singles he was releasing. That Kendrick collab is one of the worst things I've ever heard. 

Also downloaded Lecrae's Church Clothes 2. Excited to listen through that. 

Spent yesterday morning listening through a sermon on the seventh commandment, "Do Not Commit Adultery." We're in a series on the 10 Commandments at my church back home, and it's great to be able to keep up with it on the road. Had a couple of thoughts, in light of the sermon:

  • I'm so thankful that the Lord has saved me from adultery of the hands (meaning, the physical act of committing adultery) thus far, and I want to keep a humble spirit regarding my potential for sin here. Like Greg Laurie recently said, "If you think you'd never fall sexually you think you're godlier than David, stronger than Samson and wiser than Solomon."
  • I'm so humbled by the forgiveness I've received for adultery of the heart. (Jesus raised the bar and made it impossible for us to be outwardly moralistic about sin. People talk of our "Old Testament God" and contrast him negatively to Jesus as though they were two different people - one a cruel rule-maker, and the other one that saves us from the rules. When you look at Jesus' Sermon on the Mount, though, Jesus doesn't do away with the law, he makes the law heavier. He defines sin not just as what is done outwardly, but as what motivates and defines and goes unseen inwardly, making it impossible to create a distinction between good people and bad people, save himself, as the only Good Person.)
  • I need to call or email a couple of people who have gone through adultery in their marriages and allowed the Lord to work redemption in their lives. I need to thank them for their example. What a miracle! What an inspiration! What a testament to the loving goodness of God!

In truth, we are all adulterers. Perhaps that is even the root of our condition. Biblically, adultery results in idolatry and vice versa. To go after other gods is to whore ourselves out against the one true God. On this tour, Sean Michel is singing a song called Hosea Blues. If you've never read the story of Hosea in the Bible, he's a dude that the Lord asks to pursue and marry a prostitute, who will continually, literally, screw him over. She will go after other men. She will invite them into her bed. She will go to their beds. Her infidelity will break Hosea's heart, and he is to pursue her continually, regardless. He is to keep loving her, inviting her back, cherishing her, being intimate with her. He is to be selfless toward her and give himself up for her. He is to retrieve and redeem his whore of a wife… 

And it is to be a picture of God's pursuit of and action toward us, who adulterate, and play the whore.

Anyway, it's a good song. That was a timely sermon, and I praise Jesus that he is a good, persistent husband that went to infinitely sacrificial lengths to give his own identity to this proverbial whore of a wife.


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